There have been nights I have laid down in the bed & let out a sigh, thinking, "I did it, another day is done." What a strange feeling to feel triumphant just making it through a day & at the same time feeling sad at how quickly these days roll by in the grand scheme of things.Your hair is growing like mad & your mile long legs are getting rolls that jiggle when I tickle you. You think Riley is the funniest thing you've ever seen! You sit in your walker & giggle endlessly while her paws click clack around you on the kitchen floor.
The month of February has been quite an eventful one for you. You've survived your first snow storm, ice storm & earthquake! We were without electricity for almost an entire day when the ice storm hit but we bundled you up & you snuggled in the bed with us that night. I don't think I slept much because I was worried to move around too much & also because my heart was so full, feeling your plump cheek nestled against my chest, your steady breath against my skin, those tiny hands tangled in my shirt. The next day we read The Story of Ferdinand by the window light & you laid on your tummy fascinated while daddy & I played Yahtzee & Scrabble.Your hands are constantly moving! You love to feel new textures & scratch everything with your razor sharp nails. No matter how much daddy clips those nails, they grow like wildfire & you unfortunately enjoy using my skin to sharpen them.
At night, I can hear you scratching your crib bumper in your sleep because you like how soft the material is but the noise sounds very sinister over a baby monitor in the dark, like we're in a horror movie!I find myself becoming more interested in photography each day because I love documenting your life. I really only have a handful of photos of me as a kid & exactly 2 "professional" family photos (one when I was 8 months, the other at my wedding!) so it's important to me to photograph your life as you grow up. I have to remind myself to step in front of the camera every now & then, too, so that you'll have photos of us together to hold on to throughout your life.I feel like I'm slowly starting to remember who I was before you were born & learning how to live life with a baby. I still work in the office 3 days out of the week which gives you time to be spoiled by your memaw, I'm starting to do photo sessions & projects again, & you & I "talk" all the time. You're a great listener, sweet baby. Since you've found your voice, you've started experimenting with how loud you can make sounds. Lets just say you can get to a high pitch that only dogs & Mariah Carey can hear.So, Haven, five months have passed & we're making it through this long winter day by day. You learn something new every day. I love you more every day. We're figuring this whole mother/daughter thing out. I love you, sweet pea.
Infinitely,Mama
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